Thursday, June 20, 2013

ODE TO KAYVON ZAND or WHY MANHATTAN WEARS SO MUCH BLACK by B+J Dini




KAYVON ZAND

I WANT TO WRITE A LOVE LETTER TO YOU BUT I DID THE THING PEOPLE DO SOMETIMES WHEN THEYRE SUPPOSED TO WRITE LOVE POETRY AND I WENT TO SKYTOWN ON MYRTLE BROADWAY WHERE YOU OFTEN SEEN DRAG QUEENS OUT OF DRAG AND YOU CAN BE LIKE HEY LOOK AT ME IM A WRITER AND YOURE THE SELF APPOINTED GUARDIANS OF QUEER CULTURE UNFORTUNATELY AND DRANK TOO MUCH COFFEE AND EVEN SMOKED A CIGARETTE THAT MADE MY TEETH FEEL HAIRY AND NOW I FEEL NEUROTIC AND GROSS AND ALL I CAN DO IS SUCK IN MY STOMACH AND THINK ABOUT THE QUOTE FROM NIETZSCHE ABOUT HOW OFTEN MAN MISTAKES HIMSELF FOR A GOD UNTIL HE LOOKS DOWN AT HIS ABS OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT AND THEN I THINK ABOUT YOUR PEFECT ABS WHICH ARENT EVEN PERFECT EXCEPT ON FACEBOOK AND I THINK ABOUT HOW I CANT AFFORD TO HIRE A MAKEUP ARTIST TO CONTOUR MY ABS PERFECTLY FAKE LIKE YOURS OR WHAT DOES IT EVEN MEAN TO BE FAKE ANYMORE I MEAN IT LOOKS REAL ENUFF ON FACEBOOK DOESN’T IT AND LIKE QUANTUM PHYSICS THE MORE EYEBALLS SHOOT OUT THE SAME INSTAGRAM HOLOGRAM THE MORE REAL IT IS RIGHT I CANT EVEN HIRE A PERSONAL TRAINER FOR REAL ABS OR WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO BE REAL ANYMORE WHY DOES TOO MUCH COFFEE ALWAYS TURN ME INTO SOME KIND OF LAZY ARMCHAIR PHILOSOPHER ALL PHILOSOPHERS GET FAT AND DIE ALONE AND FAT ACCEPTANCE IS THE NEW BODY FASCISM ALL THOSE SMUG DYKES WALKING AROUND EATING DONUTS ON VALENCIA STREET SAYING FUCK YOU TO THE SYSTEM WHILE KIDS STARVE IN SOUTH AMERICA AND I MEAN THIS AMERICA LIKE NEW ORLEANS THE US NOT THAT OTHER AMERICA OR MAYBE I SHOULD GET A REAL JOB AND MAKE SOME REAL MONEY AND STOP ROMANTICIZING MY POVERTY AND STOP SAYING REAL OR REALNESS LIKE SOME CHEAP URBAN SLANG OR MAYBE I SHOULD JUST WEAR GRAVITY BOOTS AND HANG UPSIDE DOWN AND WORK ON MY CORE FOR REAL CUZ THAT’S WHAT MY PHYSICAL THERAPIST SAYS I SHOULD DO ANYWAY JUST SLEEP UPSIDE DOWN TO RELIEVE PRESSURE ON THE BULGING DISCS IN MY SPINE WHICH HAPPENED WHEN I WAS SUCKING IN MY STOMACH ON MY VESPA AND WAS RUN OVER BY A TRUCK IN SAN FRANCISCO WHERE EVERYONE THINKS ITS SEXY TO WEAR BEARDS THAT SMELL LIKE PISS AND NOW MY CROOKED SPINE IS HOLDING UP THE WORLD JUST BARELY LIKE ATLAS WITH BIG BROWN AYN RAND EYES WITH A KINK AT THE ROOT WHERE MY KUNDALINI REPTOID LIVES COILED AROUND A STICK LIKE DOLLAR SIGNS AND DNA HELIXES AND I THINK IM FUCKING BATMAN IN GOTHAM CITY WHEN I HANG UPSIDE DOWN JUST LIKE YOU AND JUST AS THE LAST BATMAN MOVIE PREDICTED SANDY HOOK I WONDER IF YOU ARE SOME GREAT OMEN I AM TRYING TO DECIPHER AND IM NOT EVEN TALKING ABOUT YOU AS A PERSON REALLY I HAVENT MET YOU MAYBE YOURE A REALLY NICE GUY IM JUST TALKING ABOUT THE IDEA OF YOU YOU AS A CONCEPT A BIG FURRY MASCOT WITH BLACK FEATHERS REALLY

KAYVON ZAND

YOU ARE THE EMPTY PLASTIC VAMPIRE HANGING OVER GOTHAM CITY ON A RUSTY ABORTION HANGER IN THE CLOSET YOU NEVER CAME OUT OF WISHING SOMEONE WOULD MAKE A SUPERHERO MOVIE ABOUT YOU BUT NO ONE CAN FIGURE OUT WHO YOU ARE TRYING TO SAVE BECAUSE YOU WANNA LOOK LIKE THE VILLAIN ALL THE TIME AND NOW EVERYONE WANTS TO BE VAMPIRES AFTER TRUE BLOOD CLASSIC ANTIHEROS IN THE AGE OF SUPERHERO FATIGUE WHEN GEORGE W BUSH WAS THE LAST CAPTAIN AMERICA AND OBAMA WAS THE LAST SUPERMAN AND NOW WE HATE THEM ALL AND HAVE TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO SAVE OURSELVES BUT WHY VAMPIRES KAYVON BASICALLY JUST FLESH AND BLOOD WITH NO SOUL MAYBE IT WOULD BE BETTER TO WALK THE EARTH FOR AS LONG AS WE CAN LIKE THOSE BUDDHIST SAINTS WHO RENOUNCE NIRVANA UNTIL EVERYONE IS ABSORBED INTO NOTHINGNESS AND MAYBE THIS IS THE BEST DIMENSION AFTER ALL MAYBE ALL THE OTHER ONES ARE TOO CRAZY LIKE YOU CAN SEE EVERYTHING ALL AT ONCE LIKE BEING STUCK ON A NEVERENDING FACEBOOK FEED ALL DAY LIKE A PIGEON PECKING AT LIKES FOR FOOD PELLETS AND YOU ARE TOO CLOSE TO THE UNIVERSAL HIVE MIND WHICH STARTS TO BECOME LOUDER AND LOUDER LIKE A BUZZING SUCKING SOUND LIKE A THROBBING BLOOD FILLED NECK GURGLING ITSELF WAITING FOR YOUR JUDAS KISS THE CLOSER YOU GET THOSE DAMN REINCARNATING MATRIX JANITORS AND TIME COPS THOTH MERCURY HERMES WITH THE WINGED NIKE SHOES PLAYING BASKETBALL FOR ALL ETERNITY ALL THEY WANT YOU TO DO IS FOLLOW THE LIGHT FOLLOW THE MASTERS OF LIGHT SO YOU CAN REACH THE LIGHT AT THE END OF THE PROJECTOR AND REALIZE ALL THE MASTERS OF LIGHT WERE REALLY MASTERS OF DARKNESS VAMPIRES IN DISGUISE LIKE LYING LUCIFER AND HIS LEGION OF SCHEMING FREEMASONS THAT ALL LOOK LIKE YOU KAYVON ALL THEY WANTED WAS TO ASSIMILATE YOUR PENIS CHAKRA INTO THE UNIVERSAL HIVE MIND LIKE SOME KIND OF SPIRITUAL BATTERY SERVICE I MEAN WHO REALLY WANTS TO DISSOLVE INTO PURE SPIRIT OR PURE BEING ANYWAY IT SEEMS SO GROSS SO STICKY LIKE SOME KIND OF GIANT HEGELIAN SWAMP MARSH FULL OF OLD WRECKED CARS I WANT TO LOOK INTO THE VOID AND SEE YOUR FACE LOOK BACK AT ME KAYVON ZAND YOU ARE THE VOID AND WHO WANTS YOU TO BE INSIDE THEM ANYWAY YOU ARE JUST FLESH AND BLOOD I WANT TO BE MORE THAN THAT MORE THAN THAT SKINNY TWINK FROM TWILIGHT MORE THAN CAIN SLAYING ABLE AND WEARING THE SATURN DEATH CULT HEX ON HIS FOREHEAD EXCEPT WHEN IT COMES RIGHT DOWN TO IT ID RATHER BE A HICK THAN A VAMPIRE WHICH IS THE TRUE MEANING OF TRUE BLOOD BECAUSE WHEN THE SHIT HITS THE FAN ALL THAT IS GOING TO BE LEFT BETWEEN YOU AND A FEMA CAMP KAYVON IS A HICK WITH A SHOTGUN MARK MY WORDS WE SHOULD ALL BE PRETENDING TO BE HICKS NOT VAMPIRES THOSE LIBERTARIAN MILITIA GROUPS HAVE MORE BALLS TO PUT WHERE THEIR MOUTH IS THAN ALL THE ANARCHISTS SLEEPING IN SLEEPING BAGS COMBINED WONT YOU JOIN ME FOR THE ARMED MARCH ON WASHINGTON DC THIS FOURTH OF JULY KAYVON IT WILL BE SO FUN I WILL BE WEARING A FAKE GUN ON MY BACK BECAUSE MY LIFE IS MY ART KAYVON ITS PURELY FOR SYMBOLIC VALUE I AM MARS I AM ARIES I REPRESENT WAR IM NOT SUPPOSED TO TURN THE OTHER CHEEK MAYBE ITS MORE REAL THAN A REAL GUN CUZ I MIGHT EVEN GET SHOT AND NOT EVEN SYMBOLICALLY

KAYVON ZAND

MAYBE YOU REALLY ARE THE KLAUS NOMI OF MANHATTAN LIKE YOU AND YOUR FRIENDS SAY AND AUTOTUNE IS THE NEW UNIVERSAL HUMAN VOICE THE SOUND OF CORPORATE PERSONHOOD BECAUSE EVERYONE KNOWS CORPORATIONS ARE DIVAS TOO I MEAN IN THE END ACCORDING TO THE MASTERS OF LIGHT WE WANT TO GET RID OF OUR INDIVIDUAL HUMAN VOICES AND MELT INTO PURE BEING RIGHT WELL AUTOTUNING SEEMS LIKE A NATURAL STEP UNTIL YOU REALIZE SO MANY SCHOOLS OF BUDDHISM IN CHINA AND INDIA BASICALLY JUST USED MEDITATION AND THE PROMISE OF NIRVANA AS A WAY TO KEEP EVERYONE PASSIVE LIKE VEGETATION SO THE CORPORATE CASTE SYSTEM COULD CONTINUE TO PERPETUATE ITSELF PARASITICALLY LIKE A VAMPIRE SUPER BEING HANGING OVER EVERYTHING LIKE A RUSTY ABORTION HANGER LIKE THE TANGLED PISS SMELLING HIPSTER BEARD OF KARL MARX EVERYONE WEARS IN SAN FRANCISCO EATING DONUTS ON VALENCIA STREET AND ALL OUR BOTTLED RAGE CAN JUST EVAPORATE LIKE GRAZING COW FARTS IN THE ATMOSPHERE EXCEPT I CONSTANTLY HAVE TO BE REMINDED THAT VEGETATION IS ACTUALLY REALLY SMART AND ACTIVE AND PROBABLY EVEN LISTENING TO ME TALK TO YOU RIGHT NOW AND IM SCARED THAT ALL MY RAGE FARTS WILL CONTRIBUTE TO GLOBAL WARMING EVEN THO IT SEEMS MORE LIKE GLOBAL COOLING NOW WHICH IS WHY THEY CHANGED IT TO CLIMATE CHANGE WHICH IS THE MOST ORWELIAN THING EVER LIKE THE CLIMATE NEVER CHANGES LIKE THERE WASN’T A ICE AGE OR MEDIEVAL WARMING PERIOD OR WHATEVER AND MAYBE WE REALLY SHOULD TAX THE AIR WE BREATHE AND MAYBE EVERY TIME WE EXHALE WE ARE REALLY POLLUTING THE ENVIRONMENT WITH OUR BAD DRAGON CARBON BREATH AND ALL THE GREEN PEOPLE AND LITTLE GREEN MEN ARE RIGHT MAYBE WE SHOULD JUST GET RID OF MOST OF HUMANITY THOSE USELESS EATERS ARE JUST A CANCER ON THE PLANET AND ALL THE CITIES SHOULD BE NUKED BECAUSE THEY ARENT LIKE NATURAL OUTGROWTHS LIKE BEEHIVES FULL OF PEOPLE INSTEAD OF BEES ON A PLANET WHICH WANTS NOTHING MORE THAN TO EVOLVE FROM ORGANIC MUD TO SYNTHETIC LIGHT IM SURE YOU AND THE VAMPIRES COULD HELP WITH THAT RIGHT JUST LIKE THE CULT OF LILITH ON TRUE BLOOD JUST LIKE THE CULT OF AL GORE AND THE MELTING ICECAPS AND THE POOR SWIMMING POLAR BEARS WHO ALL HAD TO TRADE IN THEIR FUR COATS FOR BIKINIS MADE IN CHINA NOW IM WONDERING YOURE PROBABLY JUST A FUCKING VEGETARIAN PRETENDING TO EAT MEAT ANYWAY NOT EVEN A REAL VAMPIRE JUST A PSYCHIC ONE LIKE EARL DAX ON FACEBOOK YOU CANT STAY ON THE WHEEL UNLESS YOU KILL TO EAT AND EAT TO KILL GOTTA KEEP THAT KARMA GOIN ROUND DO UR PART TO SPIN THE WHEEL OF FORTUNE VANNA WHITE GUY COME ON KEEP IT GOING JUST A LIL BIT MORE THAT’S HOW UFOS WORK GIANT GYROSCOPES THAT SPIN LIKE SWASTIKAS RIGHT THE FUCK OFF THE EARTH BACK THRU THE GIANT HEXAGON STORM ON SATURN TOO BAD YOURE NOT CLEVER ENUFF TO BE A UFO INVENTED BY PSYCHIC NAZIS AT A S√ČANCE PARTY BACK IN THE DAY THEY WERE PROLLY VAMPIRES TOO OR BURLESQUE DANCERS

KAYVON ZAND

I STILL BELIEVE WE NEED BETTER HEROS AND THE CLUB KIDS ARENT IT I MEAN WHAT ARE CLUB KIDS BUT VAMPIRES ANYWAY DO YOU REALLY WANT EVERYTHING TO END LIKE PARTY MONSTER WITH MACULAY KULKIN HOME ALONE IN THE NATIONAL ENQUIRER LOOKING LIKE A CRACK ADDICT WITH A CHOPPED UP DRUG DEALER BOYFRIEND LIKE A FUZZY BURNING MAN BARF BAG YOU TURNED EVERY RITUAL INTO A P U I ROCK CONCERT AND I HAD SO MUCH HOPE IN THE NINETIES THAT WE WOULD ALL END UP TOGETHER IN ONE BIG RAVE THAT LAUNCHED US ALL STRAIGHT INTO SIRIUS THE RIGHT COMBINATION OF MOLECULAR KEYS IN CRUSHED DESIGNER TABLETS BUT NOW EVERYONE IS JUST EXHAUSTED SWEATY AND POUNDING THEIR FISTS MECHANICALLY TO DUBSTEP DOING THE PEE DANCE WAITING IN LINE FOR A BATHROOM THAT WILL NEVER OPEN WITH PSYCHIC CROSSES ON THEIR FOREHEADS AND ANARCHY PATCHES HELD UP BY PINS AND NEEDLES AS SOME KIND OF RUNNING RETRO JOKE RUNNING AROUND MAKING MAGICK THEY ARENT EVEN AWARE OF LIKE RIHANNA FLASHING YOU THE PYRAMID OR HER DIAMOND EYE OR ALL THE BOHEMIAN GROVE OWLS STARING OUT FROM DARK TSHIRTS IN HIGH DEF TIMES SQUARE FLATSCREENS WHERE WERE ALL JUST A BUNCH OF TOURIST FACES IN OUR OWN RADICAL CULTURES OR LIKE EVERYONE WEARING BLACK IN MANHATTAN BECAUSE THAT’S WHAT HEROIN LOOKS LIKE AND WERE ALL DRESSING FOR OUR OWN FUNERALS IN A CITY WHERE EVERYONE WANTS TO BLOW UP WHILE ALL THE GREAT WRITERS WERE ALL ON SPEED MAKING REACTIONARIES LIKE ME WANT TO WEAR ALL WHITE OR EVEN ALL THE COLORS LIKE NICKI MINAJ THE BLACK MADONNA WITH THE BLONDE HAIR AND I DON’T KNOW KAYVON GETTING PAID TO PLAY DRESS UP WITH ALL THE REST OF THE VAMPIRES WITH BOTTLE SERVICE CAN ONLY GO SO FAR I MEAN SINCE WHEN WAS HOT TOPICK OR BROOKE CANDY TRYING TO BE GOTH AVANT GARDE AND WHAT IS THIS BOTTLE SERVICE THING ANYWAY WHATS THIS OBSESSION WITH PEOPLE SITTING IN CORNERS WITH BOTTLES LIKE BOTTLED WATER LIKE THE WATER OF LIFE OR THE WATER OF OBLIVION OR YOUR OLD BABY BOTTLE YOUR MOTHERS MILKY TIT I MEAN ITS FREELY AVAILABLE TO EVERYONE ITS EASY TO FORGET YOUR ECONOMIC SLAVERY OR THAT THIS HAS BECOME YOUR LIFE IF YOU REALLY WANT TO JUST CLOSE  YOUR EYES CLEAR YOUR MIND AND PICTURE THE GUY IN THE EYELINER STANDING NEXT TO YOU BUT WE PLAY THIS GAME OF PRETEND LIKE WE NEED TO KISS THE ASSES OF ALL THE EARL DAX VAMPIRES OF THE WORLD TO GET THE BOTTLE MAYBE THE BOTTLE IS THE GRAIL MAYBE IT’S THE BODY OF A WOMAN MAYBE  IT’S THE HOUR GLASS WITH THE SAND RUNNING OUT MAYBE IT’S THE VACCINE WITH THE MERCURY IN IT YOU TAKE BECAUSE YOU ARE AFRAID OF THE BIRD FLU THAT LOOKS AND SOUNDS LIKE THE TURKEY THEY ATE AT THE VERY FIRST THANKSGIVING IN AMERICA THE MERCURY THAT GIVES ALL THE LITTLE KIDS THE SACRED GIFT OF AUTISM SO THEY CAN ALL BECOME THE NEXT GENERATIONS ANTI AUTHORITARIANS SITTING IN THE CORNER COUNTING TO THEMSELVES ROCKING BACK AND FORTH LIKE LITTLE JEWS WAILING AT THE SETTLEMENT WALLS ON THE STREET MAYBE THEY WILL OWN THE MEDIA ONE DAY AS A RESULT OF THEIR TOTAL LACK OF REFLECTOR NEURONS BECAUSE THE VIRAL VIDEO IS THE NEW SOCIAL MIRROR MAYBE THAT’S WHAT MERCURY IS ALL ABOUT THESE DAYS ONLY RETARDED PEOPLE THINK STANDING FACE TO FACE IS SOMEHOW MORE REAL UNLESS YOU LEARN SOMETHING ABOUT BODY LANGUAGE BUT THEN EVERYTHING IN DAILY LIFE STARTS TO LOOK LIKE MODERN DANCE AND MODERN DANCE IS MOSTLY JUST A LOT OF EXPENSIVE CAPITAL LETTERS WITH NAKED PEOPLE SHOUTING AND SHAKING BEHIND THEM IN GLASS COFFINS THAT SLOWLY RUN OUT OF AIR MAYBE THE MERCURY IS THE MESSAGE THE MESSAGE IN THE BOTTLE THAT POPPED OUT OF THE DRAIN IN OUR COLLECTIVE BATHTUB SO WHATS UR MESSAGE KAYVON ZAND MAYBE THAT’S IT KAYVON MAYBE YOU ARE THE MESSAGE MAYBE YOUR LIFE IS YOUR ART AND YOUR LIFE IS SITTING IN THE CORNER WITH A BOTTLE WITH SECURITY GUARDS AND CAMERAS AND UNDERPAID JANITORS EVERYWHERE CLEANING UP YOUR MESS AND EVERYONE STANDING IN LINE WAITING TO PAY TOO MUCH COVER LIKE A MICROSCOPIC COSMOS OF THE CITY ITSELF AS ABOVE SO BELOW AS ON TOP SO ON BOTTOM YOU ARE MANHATTAN KAYVON YOU ARE THE MALL OF THE WORLD YOU ARE A CLOTHING RACK YOU ARE A MANICAN AND EVERYONE KNOWS MANICANS ARE MORE HUMAN THAN THE REST OF US WHO ARENT EVEN VERY GOOD AT LOOKING HUMAN THEY REPRESENT THE PURE IDEA THE PURE FORM JUST LIKE YOU KAYVON DON’T GET ME WRONG KAYVON IM NOT LOOKING FOR THE REAL THING THE AUTHENTIC THING EVERYONE KNOWS THAT’S JUST MORE WRETCHED NOSTALGIA LIKE THE ROMANTIC NATIVES WHO NEVER SCORCHED THE EARTH OR ENGAGED IN ENDLESS TRIBAL WARFARE OR TREATED LOWER CASTES AND WOMEN LIKE SACRIFICIAL ANIMALS IM MORE INTO PRETEND AND FAKING IT TIL YOU MAKE IT BUT WHAT EXACTLY ARE YOU MAKING IM STILL CONFUSED TINY SHAKING  SKELETON HANDS IN CHINA MAKING ALL YOUR UNDERGARMENTS

KAYVON ZAND

YOU ARE AN ENTIRE GENERATION TRADING IN POSTERITY FOR FIFTEEN MINUTES OF FAME BUT WHY SHOULD WE WANT TO LIVE FOREVER LIKE VAMPIRES ANYWAY MAYBE WE SHOULD JUST BURN BRIGHT AND THEN GET SNUFFED OUT LIKE ALL THE HEROIN ADDICTS IN THE WORLD WHO WEAR ALL BLACK AND LOOK LIKE YOU AND THEN DIED BEFORE THEY TURNED THIRTY ALMOST LIKE JESUS I MEAN EVERY TIME I LOOK INTO YOUR CONTACT EYES AND FEATHERED HAIR I AM REMINDED OF ALL THE MOVIES IN THE WORLD WHERE MANHATTAN BLOWS UP IN THE END AND THAT WE REALLY DON’T HAVE MUCH TIME  AND ALL THE POP STARS SING ABOUT BEING BORN TO DIE LIVE FAST DIE YOUNG EVEN LANA AND THEN I THINK ABOUT ANDY WARHOL AND EDIE SEDGWICKS SKELETON HEROIN BODY AND HOW HE DUMPED HER OFF IN A BLACK TRASH BAG AS SOON AS HE REALIZED SHE WOULDN’T BRING HIM TO ALL THE LIBERAL DRUIDS IN HOLLYWOOD AND HOW HE CALLED THIS POP ART AND HOW ALL THE VAMPIRES ARE SO INTO POP ART BECAUSE ANDY WAS REALLY A VAMPIRE JUST LIKE EARL DAX AND I THINK ABOUT EDIES SKELETON BODY WRAPPED AROUND KAVYONS BODY IN A HALL OF MIRRORS THAT GO ON FOREVER AND THAT’S POP ART AND SO MAYBE WE SHOULD ALL JUST GET ON OUR MOTORCYLES AND RAW FUCK COW SKULLS AND FLY OUR AMERICAN FLAGS IN THE DESERT AND GET AIDS IT FEELS BETTER ANYWAY WHO USES CONDOMS THESE DAYS PLASTIC IS BAD FOR THE ENVIRONMENT SO IS LATEX IN THE AGE OF THE GAY MORNING AFTER PILL ITS ALL ABOUT THE BAREBACK PORN IT’S THE ONLY KIND OF PORN THAT MAKES MONEY THESE DAYS EVERYONE IS DOING IT MAKING YOUR OWN PORN ON YOUR IPHONE ON SPEED AND SORTING OUT THE TEST RESULTS LATER A POSITIVE SIGN LOOKS LIKE A CROSS AND CHRIST CONSCIOUSNESS STARTS WHEN YOU DIE A VAMPIRE AT THIRTY THREE THAT’S HOW YOU BECOME KOOLER THAN JESUS SPELLED WITH A K AS IN KKK WHICH MEANS CIRCLE OF BROTHERS MAYBE THAT’S WHAT YOU MAKE MAYBE THAT’S YOUR ART DON’T YOU LOVE THE FEELING OF SKIN TO SKIN CONTACT ANYWAY ISNT THAT WHAT VAMPIRES ARE ALL ABOUT ARENT YOU THE NEW FACE OF POP ART THE NEW FACE OF CLUB KIDS THE NEW FACE OF AIDS EVEN THO UR JUST PRETEND GAY PROLLY LIKE PRETEND VEGETARIAN BREAKING DOWN THE IMMUNE SYSTEM WHICH IS REALLY DISSOLVING INTO THE BIOLOGICAL VOID ANYWAY RIGHT JUST LIKE WHAT THE BUDDHISTS WANT JUST LIKE VAMPIRES WITHOUT SOULS WHO TURN INTO DUST JUST LIKE NIRVANA JUST LIKE KURT COBAIN ON HEROIN JUST LIKE THE ABYSS LOOKING BACK INTO YOU WITH YOUR PAINTED FACE ON IT JUST LIKE WHEN COMMUNICATION AND LANGUAGE BARRIERS BREAK DOWN AND YOU BODY CAN NO LONGER RECOGNIZE WHAT BELONGS TO IT AND WHAT DOES NOT JUST LIKE Y2K AND 9-11 AND 2012 AND ALL THE MERCURY AND ALL THE HEROIN YOU CAN SHOOT UP IN THE WORLD JUST LIKE EXPENSIVE CAPITAL LETTERS WITH NO PUNCTUATION JUST LIKE ON YOUR BIRTH CERTIFICATE YOU TRADED FOR YOUR SOUL WHEN YOU WERE BORN IN THAT ALL WHITE HOSPITAL WHERE THE FIRST THING YOU LEARNED WAS HOW TO GET SLAPPED IN THE ASS WITH A GLOVE WITH NAME THAT DETERMINED YOUR GENDER IDENTITY

KAYVON ZAND 

YOU ARE A STATE OF MIND
YOU PUT THE STATE IN EMPIRE STATE
AND THIS WHOLE THING WAS JUST ONE BIG HEX
SEE WHAT STANDS OUT IN YOUR MIND
WHAT REPEATS LIKE A BROKEN AUTOTUNE FORK
WELCOME TO THE GIANT HEXAGON STORM ON SATURN VIA MARS AND MERCURY
THE GIANT SWASTIKA UFO SPINNING OFF THE EARTH
THE MARK OF CAIN IS HEX HEX HEX
YOU WILL BE SWALLOWED UP IN DINOSAUR BONES THAT LIVED ON AND BECAME HUMANOID LIZARD KINGS
THE NOT SO NEW WINE DYING ON THE VINE
SUCK IT KAYVON ZAND
LUV B+J